GREAT EXPECTATIONS
PART 7
Chapter XV
As I was
getting too big for Mr. Wopsle's great-aunt's room, my education under that
preposterous female terminated. Not, however, until Biddy had imparted to me
everything she knew, from the little catalogue of prices, to a comic song she
had once bought for a half-penny. Although the only coherent part of the latter
piece of literature were the opening lines.
When I
went to Lunnon town sirs, Too rul loo rul Too rul loo rul Wasn't I done very
brown sirs? Too rul loo rul Too rul loo rul—still, in my desire to be wiser, I
got this composition by heart with the utmost gravity; nor do I recollect that
I questioned its merit, except that I thought (as I still do) the amount of Too
rul somewhat in excess of the poetry. In my hunger for information, I made proposals
to Mr. Wopsle to bestow some intellectual crumbs upon me, with which he kindly
complied. As it turned out, however, that he only wanted me for a dramatic
lay-figure, to be contradicted and embraced and wept over and bullied and
clutched and stabbed and knocked about in a variety of ways, I soon declined
that course of instruction; though not until Mr. Wopsle in his poetic fury had
severely mauled me.
Whatever
I acquired, I tried to impart to Joe. This statement sounds so well, that I
cannot in my conscience let it pass unexplained. I wanted to make Joe less
ignorant and common, that he might be worthier of my society and less open to
Estella's reproach.
The old
Battery out on the marshes was our place of study, and a broken slate and a
short piece of slate-pencil were our educational implements: to which Joe
always added a pipe of tobacco. I never knew Joe to remember anything from one
Sunday to another, or to acquire, under my tuition, any piece of information
whatever. Yet he would smoke his pipe at the Battery with a far more sagacious
air than anywhere else,—even with a learned air,—as if he considered himself to
be advancing immensely. Dear fellow, I hope he did.
It was
pleasant and quiet, out there with the sails on the river passing beyond the earthwork,
and sometimes, when the tide was low, looking as if they belonged to sunken
ships that were still sailing on at the bottom of the water. Whenever I watched
the vessels standing out to sea with their white sails spread, I somehow
thought of Miss Havisham and Estella; and whenever the light struck aslant,
afar off, upon a cloud or sail or green hillside or water-line, it was just the
same.—Miss Havisham and Estella and the strange house and the strange life
appeared to have something to do with everything that was picturesque.
One
Sunday when Joe, greatly enjoying his pipe, had so plumed himself on being
"most awful dull," that I had given him up for the day, I lay on the
earthwork for some time with my chin on my hand, descrying traces of Miss Havisham
and Estella all over the prospect, in the sky and in the water, until at last I
resolved to mention a thought concerning them that had been much in my head.
"Joe,"
said I; "don't you think I ought to make Miss Havisham a visit?"
"Well,
Pip," returned Joe, slowly considering. "What for?"
"What
for, Joe? What is any visit made for?"
"There
is some wisits p'r'aps," said Joe, "as for ever remains open to the
question, Pip. But in regard to wisiting Miss Havisham. She might think you
wanted something,—expected something of her."
"Don't
you think I might say that I did not, Joe?"
"You
might, old chap," said Joe. "And she might credit it. Similarly she
mightn't."
Joe felt,
as I did, that he had made a point there, and he pulled hard at his pipe to
keep himself from weakening it by repetition.
"You
see, Pip," Joe pursued, as soon as he was past that danger, "Miss
Havisham done the handsome thing by you. When Miss Havisham done the handsome
thing by you, she called me back to say to me as that were all."
"Yes,
Joe. I heard her."
"ALL,"
Joe repeated, very emphatically.
"Yes,
Joe. I tell you, I heard her."
"Which
I meantersay, Pip, it might be that her meaning were,—Make a end on it!—As you
was!—Me to the North, and you to the South!—Keep in sunders!"
I had
thought of that too, and it was very far from comforting to me to find that he
had thought of it; for it seemed to render it more probable.
"But,
Joe."
"Yes,
old chap."
"Here
am I, getting on in the first year of my time, and, since the day of my being
bound, I have never thanked Miss Havisham, or asked after her, or shown that I
remember her."
"That's
true, Pip; and unless you was to turn her out a set of shoes all four
round,—and which I meantersay as even a set of shoes all four round might not
be acceptable as a present, in a total wacancy of hoofs—"
"I
don't mean that sort of remembrance, Joe; I don't mean a present."
But Joe
had got the idea of a present in his head and must harp upon it. "Or
even," said he, "if you was helped to knocking her up a new chain for
the front door,—or say a gross or two of shark-headed screws for general use,—or
some light fancy article, such as a toasting-fork when she took her muffins,—or
a gridiron when she took a sprat or such like—"
"I
don't mean any present at all, Joe," I interposed.
"Well,"
said Joe, still harping on it as though I had particularly pressed it, "if
I was yourself, Pip, I wouldn't. No, I would not. For what's a door-chain when
she's got one always up? And shark-headers is open to misrepresentations. And
if it was a toasting-fork, you'd go into brass and do yourself no credit. And the
oncommonest workman can't show himself oncommon in a gridiron,—for a gridiron
IS a gridiron," said Joe, steadfastly impressing it upon me, as if he were
endeavouring to rouse me from a fixed delusion, "and you may haim at what
you like, but a gridiron it will come out, either by your leave or again your
leave, and you can't help yourself—"
"My
dear Joe," I cried, in desperation, taking hold of his coat, "don't
go on in that way. I never thought of making Miss Havisham any present."
"No,
Pip," Joe assented, as if he had been contending for that, all along;
"and what I say to you is, you are right, Pip."
"Yes,
Joe; but what I wanted to say, was, that as we are rather slack just now, if
you would give me a half-holiday to-morrow, I think I would go up-town and make
a call on Miss Est—Havisham."
"Which
her name," said Joe, gravely, "ain't Estavisham, Pip, unless she have
been rechris'ened."
"I
know, Joe, I know. It was a slip of mine. What do you think of it, Joe?"
In brief,
Joe thought that if I thought well of it, he thought well of it. But, he was
particular in stipulating that if I were not received with cordiality, or if I
were not encouraged to repeat my visit as a visit which had no ulterior object
but was simply one of gratitude for a favor received, then this experimental
trip should have no successor. By these conditions I promised to abide.
Now, Joe
kept a journeyman at weekly wages whose name was Orlick. He pretended that his
Christian name was Dolge,—a clear Impossibility,—but he was a fellow of that
obstinate disposition that I believe him to have been the prey of no delusion
in this particular, but wilfully to have imposed that name upon the village as
an affront to its understanding. He was a broadshouldered loose-limbed swarthy
fellow of great strength, never in a hurry, and always slouching. He never even
seemed to come to his work on purpose, but would slouch in as if by mere
accident; and when he went to the Jolly Bargemen to eat his dinner, or went
away at night, he would slouch out, like Cain or the Wandering Jew, as if he
had no idea where he was going and no intention of ever coming back. He lodged
at a sluice-keeper's out on the marshes, and on working-days would come
slouching from his hermitage, with his hands in his pockets and his dinner
loosely tied in a bundle round his neck and dangling on his back. On Sundays he
mostly lay all day on the sluice-gates, or stood against ricks and barns. He
always slouched, locomotively, with his eyes on the ground; and, when accosted
or otherwise required to raise them, he looked up in a half-resentful,
half-puzzled way, as though the only thought he ever had was, that it was
rather an odd and injurious fact that he should never be thinking.
This
morose journeyman had no liking for me. When I was very small and timid, he
gave me to understand that the Devil lived in a black corner of the forge, and
that he knew the fiend very well: also that it was necessary to make up the
fire, once in seven years, with a live boy, and that I might consider myself
fuel. When I became Joe's 'prentice, Orlick was perhaps confirmed in some
suspicion that I should displace him; howbeit, he liked me still less. Not that
he ever said anything, or did anything, openly importing hostility; I only
noticed that he always beat his sparks in my direction, and that whenever I
sang Old Clem, he came in out of time.
Dolge
Orlick was at work and present, next day, when I reminded Joe of my
half-holiday. He said nothing at the moment, for he and Joe had just got a
piece of hot iron between them, and I was at the bellows; but by and by he
said, leaning on his hammer,—
"Now,
master! Sure you're not a going to favor only one of us. If Young Pip has a
half-holiday, do as much for Old Orlick." I suppose he was about
five-and-twenty, but he usually spoke of himself as an ancient person.
"Why,
what'll you do with a half-holiday, if you get it?" said Joe.
"What'll
I do with it! What'll he do with it? I'll do as much with it as him," said
Orlick.
"As
to Pip, he's going up town," said Joe.
"Well
then, as to Old Orlick, he's a going up town," retorted that worthy.
"Two can go up town. Tain't only one wot can go up town.
"Don't
lose your temper," said Joe.
"Shall
if I like," growled Orlick. "Some and their up-towning! Now, master!
Come. No favoring in this shop. Be a man!"
The
master refusing to entertain the subject until the journeyman was in a better
temper, Orlick plunged at the furnace, drew out a red-hot bar, made at me with
it as if he were going to run it through my body, whisked it round my head,
laid it on the anvil, hammered it out,—as if it were I, I thought, and the
sparks were my spirting blood,—and finally said, when he had hammered himself
hot and the iron cold, and he again leaned on his hammer,—
"Now,
master!"
"Are
you all right now?" demanded Joe.
"Ah!
I am all right," said gruff Old Orlick.
"Then,
as in general you stick to your work as well as most men," said Joe,
"let it be a half-holiday for all."
My sister
had been standing silent in the yard, within hearing,—she was a most
unscrupulous spy and listener,—and she instantly looked in at one of the
windows.
"Like
you, you fool!" said she to Joe, "giving holidays to great idle
hulkers like that. You are a rich man, upon my life, to waste wages in that
way. I wish I was his master!"
"You'd
be everybody's master, if you durst," retorted Orlick, with an ill-favored
grin.
("Let
her alone," said Joe.)
"I'd
be a match for all noodles and all rogues," returned my sister, beginning
to work herself into a mighty rage. "And I couldn't be a match for the
noodles, without being a match for your master, who's the dunder-headed king of
the noodles. And I couldn't be a match for the rogues, without being a match
for you, who are the blackest-looking and the worst rogue between this and
France. Now!"
"You're
a foul shrew, Mother Gargery," growled the journeyman. "If that makes
a judge of rogues, you ought to be a good'un."
("Let
her alone, will you?" said Joe.)
"What
did you say?" cried my sister, beginning to scream. "What did you
say? What did that fellow Orlick say to me, Pip? What did he call me, with my
husband standing by? Oh! oh! oh!" Each of these exclamations was a shriek;
and I must remark of my sister, what is equally true of all the violent women I
have ever seen, that passion was no excuse for her, because it is undeniable
that instead of lapsing into passion, she consciously and deliberately took extraordinary
pains to force herself into it, and became blindly furious by regular stages;
"what was the name he gave me before the base man who swore to defend me?
Oh! Hold me! Oh!"
"Ah-h-h!"
growled the journeyman, between his teeth, "I'd hold you, if you was my
wife. I'd hold you under the pump, and choke it out of you."
("I
tell you, let her alone," said Joe.)
"Oh!
To hear him!" cried my sister, with a clap of her hands and a scream
together,—which was her next stage. "To hear the names he's giving me!
That Orlick! In my own house! Me, a married woman! With my husband standing by!
Oh! Oh!" Here my sister, after a fit of clappings and screamings, beat her
hands upon her bosom and upon her knees, and threw her cap off, and pulled her
hair down,—which were the last stages on her road to frenzy. Being by this time
a perfect Fury and a complete success, she made a dash at the door which I had
fortunately locked.
What
could the wretched Joe do now, after his disregarded parenthetical
interruptions, but stand up to his journeyman, and ask him what he meant by
interfering betwixt himself and Mrs. Joe; and further whether he was man enough
to come on? Old Orlick felt that the situation admitted of nothing less than
coming on, and was on his defence straightway; so, without so much as pulling
off their singed and burnt aprons, they went at one another, like two giants.
But, if any man in that neighborhood could stand uplong against Joe, I never
saw the man. Orlick, as if he had been of no more account than the pale young
gentleman, was very soon among the coal-dust, and in no hurry to come out of
it. Then Joe unlocked the door and picked up my sister, who had dropped
insensible at the window (but who had seen the fight first, I think), and who
was carried into the house and laid down, and who was recommended to revive,
and would do nothing but struggle and clench her hands in Joe's hair. Then,
came that singular calm and silence which succeed all uproars; and then, with
the vague sensation which I have always connected with such a lull,—namely,
that it was Sunday, and somebody was dead,—I went up stairs to dress myself.
When I
came down again, I found Joe and Orlick sweeping up, without any other traces
of discomposure than a slit in one of Orlick's nostrils, which was neither
expressive nor ornamental. A pot of beer had appeared from the Jolly Bargemen,
and they were sharing it by turns in a peaceable manner. The lull had a
sedative and philosophical influence on Joe, who followed me out into the road
to say, as a parting observation that might do me good, "On the Rampage,
Pip, and off the Rampage, Pip:—such is Life!"
With what
absurd emotions (for we think the feelings that are very serious in a man quite
comical in a boy) I found myself again going to Miss Havisham's, matters little
here. Nor, how I passed and repassed the gate many times before I could make up
my mind to ring. Nor, how I debated whether I should go away without ringing;
nor, how I should undoubtedly have gone, if my time had been my own, to come back.
Miss
Sarah Pocket came to the gate. No Estella.
"How,
then? You here again?" said Miss Pocket. "What do you want?"
When I
said that I only came to see how Miss Havisham was, Sarah evidently deliberated
whether or no she should send me about my business. But unwilling to hazard the
responsibility, she let me in, and presently brought the sharp message that I
was to "come up."
Everything
was unchanged, and Miss Havisham was alone.
"Well?"
said she, fixing her eyes upon me. "I hope you want nothing? You'll get
nothing."
"No
indeed, Miss Havisham. I only wanted you to know that I am doing very well in
my apprenticeship, and am always much obliged to you."
"There,
there!" with the old restless fingers. "Come now and then; come on
your birthday.—Ay!" she cried suddenly, turning herself and her chair
towards me, "You are looking round for Estella? Hey?"
I had
been looking round,—in fact, for Estella,—and I stammered that I hoped she was
well.
"Abroad,"
said Miss Havisham; "educating for a lady; far out of reach; prettier than
ever; admired by all who see her. Do you feel that you have lost her?"
There was
such a malignant enjoyment in her utterance of the last words, and she broke
into such a disagreeable laugh, that I was at a loss what to say. She spared me
the trouble of considering, by dismissing me. When the gate was closed upon me
by Sarah of the walnut-shell countenance, I felt more than ever dissatisfied
with my home and with my trade and with everything; and that was all I took by
that motion.
As I was
loitering along the High Street, looking in disconsolately at the shop windows,
and thinking what I would buy if I were a gentleman, who should come out of the
bookshop but Mr. Wopsle. Mr. Wopsle had in his hand the affecting tragedy of
George Barnwell, in which he had that moment invested sixpence, with the view
of heaping every word of it on the head of Pumblechook, with whom he was going
to drink tea. No sooner did he see me, than he appeared to consider that a
special Providence had put a 'prentice in his way to be read at; and he laid
hold of me, and insisted on my accompanying him to the Pumblechookian parlor.
As I knew it would be miserable at home, and as the nights were dark and the
way was dreary, and almost any companionship on the road was better than none,
I made no great resistance; consequently, we turned into Pumblechook's just as
the street and the shops were lighting up.
As I
never assisted at any other representation of George Barnwell, I don't know how
long it may usually take; but I know very well that it took until half-past
nine o' clock that night, and that when Mr. Wopsle got into Newgate, I thought
he never would go to the scaffold, he became so much slower than at any former
period of his disgraceful career. I thought it a little too much that he should
complain of being cut short in his flower after all, as if he had not been
running to seed, leaf after leaf, ever since his course began. This, however,
was a mere question of length and wearisomeness. What stung me, was the identification
of the whole affair with my unoffending self. When Barnwell began to go wrong,
I declare that I felt positively apologetic, Pumblechook's indignant stare so
taxed me with it. Wopsle, too, took pains to present me in the worst light. At
once ferocious and maudlin, I was made to murder my uncle with no extenuating
circumstances whatever; Millwood put me down in argument, on every occasion; it
became sheer monomania in my master's daughter to care a button for me; and all
I can say for my gasping and procrastinating conduct on the fatal morning, is,
that it was worthy of the general feebleness of my character. Even after I was
happily hanged and Wopsle had closed the book, Pumblechook sat staring at me,
and shaking his head, and saying, "Take warning, boy, take warning!"
as if it were a well-known fact that I contemplated murdering a near relation,
provided I could only induce one to have the weakness to become my benefactor.
It was a
very dark night when it was all over, and when I set out with Mr. Wopsle on the
walk home. Beyond town, we found a heavy mist out, and it fell wet and thick.
The turnpike lamp was a blur, quite out of the lamp's usual place apparently,
and its rays looked solid substance on the fog. We were noticing this, and
saying how that the mist rose with a change of wind from a certain quarter of
our marshes, when we came upon a man, slouching under the lee of the turnpike
house.
"Halloa!"
we said, stopping. "Orlick there?"
"Ah!"
he answered, slouching out. "I was standing by a minute, on the chance of
company."
"You
are late," I remarked.
Orlick
not unnaturally answered, "Well? And you're late."
"We
have been," said Mr. Wopsle, exalted with his late performance,—"we
have been indulging, Mr. Orlick, in an intellectual evening."
Old
Orlick growled, as if he had nothing to say about that, and we all went on
together. I asked him presently whether he had been spending his half-holiday
up and down town?
"Yes,"
said he, "all of it. I come in behind yourself. I didn't see you, but I
must have been pretty close behind you. By the by, the guns is going
again."
"At
the Hulks?" said I.
"Ay!
There's some of the birds flown from the cages. The guns have been going since
dark, about. You'll hear one presently."
In
effect, we had not walked many yards further, when the well-remembered boom
came towards us, deadened by the mist, and heavily rolled away along the low
grounds by the river, as if it were pursuing and threatening the fugitives.
"A
good night for cutting off in," said Orlick. "We'd be puzzled how to
bring down a jail-bird on the wing, to-night."
The
subject was a suggestive one to me, and I thought about it in silence. Mr.
Wopsle, as the ill-requited uncle of the evening's tragedy, fell to meditating
aloud in his garden at Camberwell. Orlick, with his hands in his pockets,
slouched heavily at my side. It was very dark, very wet, very muddy, and so we
splashed along. Now and then, the sound of the signal cannon broke upon us
again, and again rolled sulkily along the course of the river. I kept myself to
myself and my thoughts. Mr. Wopsle died amiably at Camberwell, and exceedingly
game on Bosworth Field, and in the greatest agonies at Glastonbury. Orlick
sometimes growled, "Beat it out, beat it out,—Old Clem! With a clink for
the stout,—Old Clem!" I thought he had been drinking, but he was not
drunk.
Thus, we
came to the village. The way by which we approached it took us past the Three
Jolly Bargemen, which we were surprised to find—it being eleven o'clock—in a
state of commotion, with the door wide open, and unwonted lights that had been
hastily caught up and put down scattered about. Mr. Wopsle dropped in to ask
what was the matter (surmising that a convict had been taken), but came running
out in a great hurry.
"There's
something wrong," said he, without stopping, "up at your place, Pip.
Run all!"
"What
is it?" I asked, keeping up with him. So did Orlick, at my side.
"I
can't quite understand. The house seems to have been violently entered when Joe
Gargery was out. Supposed by convicts. Somebody has been attacked and
hurt."
We were
running too fast to admit of more being said, and we made no stop until we got
into our kitchen. It was full of people; the whole village was there, or in the
yard; and there was a surgeon, and there was Joe, and there were a group of
women, all on the floor in the midst of the kitchen. The unemployed bystanders
drew back when they saw me, and so I became aware of my sister,—lying without
sense or movement on the bare boards where she had been knocked down by a
tremendous blow on the back of the head, dealt by some unknown hand when her
face was turned towards the fire,—destined never to be on the Rampage again,
while she was the wife of Joe.
Chapter XVI
With my
head full of George Barnwell, I was at first disposed to believe that I must
have had some hand in the attack upon my sister, or at all events that as her
near relation, popularly known to be under obligations to her, I was a more
legitimate object of suspicion than any one else. But when, in the clearer
light of next morning, I began to reconsider the matter and to hear it
discussed around me on all sides, I took another view of the case, which was
more reasonable.
Joe had
been at the Three Jolly Bargemen, smoking his pipe, from a quarter after eight
o'clock to a quarter before ten. While he was there, my sister had been seen
standing at the kitchen door, and had exchanged Good Night with a farm-laborer
going home. The man could not be more particular as to the time at which he saw
her (he got into dense confusion when he tried to be), than that it must have
been before nine. When Joe went home at five minutes before ten, he found her
struck down on the floor, and promptly called in assistance. The fire had not
then burnt unusually low, nor was the snuff of the candle very long; the
candle, however, had been blown out.
Nothing
had been taken away from any part of the house. Neither, beyond the blowing out
of the candle,—which stood on a table between the door and my sister, and was
behind her when she stood facing the fire and was struck,—was there any
disarrangement of the kitchen, excepting such as she herself had made, in
falling and bleeding. But, there was one remarkable piece of evidence on the
spot. She had been struck with something blunt and heavy, on the head and
spine; after the blows were dealt, something heavy had been thrown down at her
with considerable violence, as she lay on her face. And on the ground beside
her, when Joe picked her up, was a convict's leg-iron which had been filed
asunder.
Now, Joe,
examining this iron with a smith's eye, declared it to have been filed asunder
some time ago. The hue and cry going off to the Hulks, and people coming thence
to examine the iron, Joe's opinion was corroborated. They did not undertake to
say when it had left the prison-ships to which it undoubtedly had once
belonged; but they claimed to know for certain that that particular manacle had
not been worn by either of the two convicts who had escaped last night.
Further, one of those two was already retaken, and had not freed himself of his
iron.
Knowing
what I knew, I set up an inference of my own here. I believed the iron to be my
convict's iron,—the iron I had seen and heard him filing at, on the
marshes,—but my mind did not accuse him of having put it to its latest use. For
I believed one of two other persons to have become possessed of it, and to have
turned it to this cruel account. Either Orlick, or the strange man who had
shown me the file.
Now, as
to Orlick; he had gone to town exactly as he told us when we picked him up at
the turnpike, he had been seen about town all the evening, he had been in
divers companies in several public-houses, and he had come back with myself and
Mr. Wopsle. There was nothing against him, save the quarrel; and my sister had
quarrelled with him, and with everybody else about her, ten thousand times. As
to the strange man; if he had come back for his two bank-notes there could have
been no dispute about them, because my sister was fully prepared to restore
them. Besides, there had been no altercation; the assailant had come in so
silently and suddenly, that she had been felled before she could look round.
It was
horrible to think that I had provided the weapon, however undesignedly, but I
could hardly think otherwise. I suffered unspeakable trouble while I considered
and reconsidered whether I should at last dissolve that spell of my childhood
and tell Joe all the story. For months afterwards, I every day settled the
question finally in the negative, and reopened and reargued it next morning.
The contention came, after all, to this;—the secret was such an old one now,
had so grown into me and become a part of myself, that I could not tear it
away. In addition to the dread that, having led up to so much mischief, it
would be now more likely than ever to alienate Joe from me if he believed it, I
had a further restraining dread that he would not believe it, but would assort
it with the fabulous dogs and veal-cutlets as a monstrous invention. However, I
temporized with myself, of course—for, was I not wavering between right and
wrong, when the thing is always done?—and resolved to make a full disclosure if
I should see any such new occasion as a new chance of helping in the discovery
of the assailant.
The
Constables and the Bow Street men from London—for, this happened in the days of
the extinct red-waistcoated police—were about the house for a week or two, and
did pretty much what I have heard and read of like authorities doing in other
such cases. They took up several obviously wrong people, and they ran their
heads very hard against wrong ideas, and persisted in trying to fit the
circumstances to the ideas, instead of trying to extract ideas from the
circumstances. Also, they stood about the door of the Jolly Bargemen, with
knowing and reserved looks that filled the whole neighborhood with admiration;
and they had a mysterious manner of taking their drink, that was almost as good
as taking the culprit. But not quite, for they never did it.
Long
after these constitutional powers had dispersed, my sister lay very ill in bed.
Her sight was disturbed, so that she saw objects multiplied, and grasped at
visionary teacups and wineglasses instead of the realities; her hearing was
greatly impaired; her memory also; and her speech was unintelligible. When, at
last, she came round so far as to be helped down stairs, it was still necessary
to keep my slate always by her, that she might indicate in writing what she
could not indicate in speech. As she was (very bad handwriting apart) a more
than indifferent speller, and as Joe was a more than indifferent reader,
extraordinary complications arose between them which I was always called in to
solve. The administration of mutton instead of medicine, the substitution of
Tea for Joe, and the baker for bacon, were among the mildest of my own
mistakes.
However,
her temper was greatly improved, and she was patient. A tremulous uncertainty
of the action of all her limbs soon became a part of her regular state, and
afterwards, at intervals of two or three months, she would often put her hands
to her head, and would then remain for about a week at a time in some gloomy
aberration of mind. We were at a loss to find a suitable attendant for her, until
a circumstance happened conveniently to relieve us. Mr. Wopsle's great-aunt
conquered a confirmed habit of living into which she had fallen, and Biddy
became a part of our establishment.
It may
have been about a month after my sister's reappearance in the kitchen, when
Biddy came to us with a small speckled box containing the whole of her worldly
effects, and became a blessing to the household. Above all, she was a blessing
to Joe, for the dear old fellow was sadly cut up by the constant contemplation
of the wreck of his wife, and had been accustomed, while attending on her of an
evening, to turn to me every now and then and say, with his blue eyes
moistened, "Such a fine figure of a woman as she once were, Pip!"
Biddy instantly taking the cleverest charge of her as though she had studied
her from infancy; Joe became able in some sort to appreciate the greater quiet
of his life, and to get down to the Jolly Bargemen now and then for a change
that did him good. It was characteristic of the police people that they had all
more or less suspected poor Joe (though he never knew it), and that they had to
a man concurred in regarding him as one of the deepest spirits they had ever
encountered.
Biddy's
first triumph in her new office, was to solve a difficulty that had completely
vanquished me. I had tried hard at it, but had made nothing of it. Thus it
was:—
Again and
again and again, my sister had traced upon the slate, a character that looked
like a curious T, and then with the utmost eagerness had called our attention
to it as something she particularly wanted. I had in vain tried everything
producible that began with a T, from tar to toast and tub. At length it had
come into my head that the sign looked like a hammer, and on my lustily calling
that word in my sister's ear, she had begun to hammer on the table and had
expressed a qualified assent. Thereupon, I had brought in all our hammers, one
after another, but without avail. Then I bethought me of a crutch, the shape
being much the same, and I borrowed one in the village, and displayed it to my
sister with considerable confidence. But she shook her head to that extent when
she was shown it, that we were terrified lest in her weak and shattered state
she should dislocate her neck.
When my
sister found that Biddy was very quick to understand her, this mysterious sign
reappeared on the slate. Biddy looked thoughtfully at it, heard my explanation,
looked thoughtfully at my sister, looked thoughtfully at Joe (who was always
represented on the slate by his initial letter), and ran into the forge,
followed by Joe and me.
"Why,
of course!" cried Biddy, with an exultant face. "Don't you see? It's
him!"
Orlick,
without a doubt! She had lost his name, and could only signify him by his
hammer. We told him why we wanted him to come into the kitchen, and he slowly
laid down his hammer, wiped his brow with his arm, took another wipe at it with
his apron, and came slouching out, with a curious loose vagabond bend in the
knees that strongly distinguished him.
I confess
that I expected to see my sister denounce him, and that I was disappointed by
the different result. She manifested the greatest anxiety to be on good terms
with him, was evidently much pleased by his being at length produced, and
motioned that she would have him given something to drink. She watched his
countenance as if she were particularly wishful to be assured that he took
kindly to his reception, she showed every possible desire to conciliate him,
and there was an air of humble propitiation in all she did, such as I have seen
pervade the bearing of a child towards a hard master. After that day, a day
rarely passed without her drawing the hammer on her slate, and without Orlick's
slouching in and standing doggedly before her, as if he knew no more than I did
what to make of it.
To be continued